How I (Try To) Keep It Together.
Prompt: How do you get through anger?
How do I get through anger? Not well, honestly. It's sad, but true! I'm improving as I get older, but I tend to lash out, cry, yell, or curl into the fetal position--or even some terrifying combination of all four--depending on the source of my ire.
Growing up, I never really learned to properly deal with feelings of upset. In my own, it was frowned upon to react negatively to any and all issues. "Having an attitude" was verboten, even if it was warranted. I was expected to react to discipline with a smile or at very least with stony self-control.
As I tend to show every emotion on my face, I failed at this endeavor often.
Becoming an adult has brought new insight into these habits I've formed. Stuffing down my anger only creates more discord because I inevitably blow up at the wrong person/place/thing/circumstance. Then, not only must I dig deeper to uncover the root, but I must apologize to those I've unintentionally hurt. It's such a mess!
On my best days, I recognize when my anger is increasing, and am able to pause, ponder, pray, and process my thoughts. Having a regular exercise regimen is another valuable resource. I find that if I start the day with a rigorous session--hot yoga, for example--I'm positively euphoric for the rest of the day. I half-jokingly tell my husband that the absolute best time to ask me for something is right after a workout. (One day too soon, the kids are going to figure this out...)
I freely admit that maintaining self-control in this area will be a lifetime endeavor. Knowing myself as well as I do, I'm certain I'll never be "done" with it. However, the fact that I'm cognizant of this shortcoming gives me hope that I can make it a lasting habit.